Question:
I DONT KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN TO EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENNS TO ME, AS I START TO THINK ABOUT IT AND BEGEN TO TRY TO EXPLAIN IT TO EVERYONE I GET TEARS IN MY EYES AND GOOSE BUMPS. SO PLEASE BEAR WITH ME, I AM MAINLY SCARED FOR MY 2 MONTH OLD SON, WHO I THINK IS HAVING THE SAME PROBLEMS I HAVE HAD FOR MOST OF MY 32 YEARS OF LIFE. I CANT HANDLE THE THOUGHT OF HIM HAVING TO DEAL WITH THIS, I LITTERALLY ALMOST HAVE NERVOUS BREAK DOWNS WHEN I SEE HIM GOING THRU IT AT NIGHT . I KNOW IM NOT GETTING TO THE POINT YET AND IM SRRY BUT ITS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO EXPLAIN AND MAKE IT SOUND LIKE IM NOT CRAZY. 1 LAST THING, I DID ONCE SEE A PROGRAM ABOUT IT ON TV AND I WROTE IT DOWN THE NAME OF THIS , AND IV SEARCHED FOR YEARS FOR THE FUCKING PEICE OF PAPER I WROTE IT SOWN ON BUT I CANT FIND IT, AND NOW THAT I HAVE A NEWBORN IM REALLY GOING CRAZY. TO THE POINT...... SOME TIMES WHEN I SLEEP I HEAR A SOUND COMING AFTER ME. I CAN HEAR IT COMING AFTER ME FROM A LONG WAYS AWAY, IT GETS CLOSER AND CLOSER AND THEN SWOOPS DOWN ON ME AND FLYS OVER ME AND REPEATS IT OVER AND OVER AND OVER UN TILL IT, HE, FINALLY GRABS ME AND TRIES TO ,,,,,,,,,,, WELL KILL ME I THINK.... DURING THESE EPOSODES I AM ASLEEP YET IM AWAKE,, I KNOW WHATS GOING ON AROUND ME BUT I CANT FIGHT IT, I TRY UNTILL MY GIRLFRIEND JENNIFER IS CLUTCHING ME AND HOLDING ME WITH ALL HER MIGHT AND YELLING AT ME TO FIGHT IT AND TO COME BACK TO HER... I CANT SEE WHAT IT IS, BUT I CAN TELL U IT IS VERY REAL AND SCARY AND EVIL...I SHAKE RAPIDLY WITH VEINS POPPING AND AND I FEEL AS IF THE DEVIL HIMSELF IS UPON ME. I HEAR MY GIRLFRIEND TRYING TO HELP ME, BUT ITS TO POWERFULL FOR ME TO FIGHT. AS I GET OLDER I DING IT HARDER TO IGHT IT OFF ITS LIKE EVERY TIME IT HAPPENS TO ME I GET WEAKER AND I FEEL THAT IF I HADNT SNAPPED OUT OF IT, MY HEART WILL HAVE STOPPED. I SIT HERE NOW SCARED AS HELL THAT MY BABY DOSENT HAVE IT ALSO CAUSE ITS BEEN A CONSTANT IN MY LIFE MORE SO THAN JUST ABOUT ANY THING ELSE HAS BEEN. I CANT HELP BUT TO CRY RIGHT NOW CAUSE I DONT REMEMBER HAVING THIS PROBLEM BEFORE MY EARLY TEEN YEARS BUT I CANT BEAR THE THOUGHT OF MY SON HAVING TO GO THRU THIS AT 2 MONTHS OLD. I WATCH HIM SLEEP OFTEN AND HE LOOKS SO SCARED THAT I JUST ABOUT LOSE CONTROL. I HAVE NO OTHER CHILDREN TO COMPARE HIS ACTION TOO BUT I KNOW WHAT I HAVE AND STILL GO TRRU AND I KNOW WHAT I SEE IN MY BABYS FACE AND EYSES AS HE BEGINS TO SCREAM HE SOSNT SLEEP BUT 8-9 HOURS IN A 24 HR PERIOD AND I DONT WNAT MY SON TO GET SICK OR GET DAMAGED BECAUSE OF THIS. THE DR,S ARE CHECKING INTO HIS SLEEPING HABITS AND R WANTING TO CALL IT CALLIK (I DONT KNOW HOW TO SPELL IT) BUT I KNOW WHAT I SEE IN HIS EYES AND I KNOW WHAT IT HAS DONE FOR MY SANITY AT TIMES PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME IF ANYONE KNOWS ANYTHING PLEASE REPLY SO I CAN HELP MY SON. THE ROGRAM I SAW YEARS AGO SAID THAT IT IS ONE OF THE RAREST DISORDERS OF SLEEP OR DISORDERS IN GENERAL, 7 % OF THE POPULATION HAS HAD OR HAS IT.